October 2010
i love the digital harrassment commerical with the...
i would love to have everything my mom says to me tattooed on me. when me becky and paul were at my table eating dinner my mom started with me. she was like screaming that i don’t respect her and i’m going to be homeless soon. it was embarrassing. she screamed all night. it put me in a super upset mood. she just doesn’t know when to shut up. she said she’s going to read my...
pauly d should love me.
i love him.
i had an amazing night.
i love my friends. they take away my pain. thanks :).
September 2010
okay, if people want the link to my youtube, they...
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i posted a video of me singing on youtube.
but i’m to much of a scared chicken to show anyone :O
i love my best friend.
hahahaha becky said, “lets be asians for halloween” and i was like dude, totally. so she goes, “:D i can see it now! out eyes taped half close, chop sticks, fortune cookies, peace signs…we’re gonna be so legit.” HAHAHAHAHA SO MUCH LOVE FOR HER.
i think i'm going to turn my youtube account into...
it’s gonna be all jesus music so no one will look at it, but i don’t want people to look at it. singing is what i love. it’s personal to me. you don’t like it, idrc.
screw you mom.
i’m so done with her mentally abusing me. when she talks to me i’m just not going to answer anymore because she sets me off. i was about to get in the shower and i couldn’t get in because i was so angry. i’m standing at my laptop with no pants on typing because i’m so angry. i cannot stand her.
18547.) I need help but I'm to scared to ask for...
18483.) Even when people tell me I'm not fat I...
18496.) I have depression. Everyone is in denial...
i look like i have herpes of the mouth because i...
my life.
you're a piece of crap.
mmmmm. that felt good to say.
How could this happen to me I made my mistakes I’ve got no where to run The night goes on As I’m fading away I’m sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me
I close my eyes and picture your hand in mine I still hear your voice, it takes me back to that time Where I can find a reason to be strong Seems like lately there’s a whole lot of leaving going on
Close the window, draw the curtains You ain’t the only one here hurtin’ No one’s right, no one’s wrong Lately there’s a whole lot of leaving going on
i think my mom should get me a babysitter.
just someone to sit and chill with me until i get another job. someone to entertain me and make sure i don’t do something stupid.
i'm having really dark thoughts today...
kdfjksdhfuwehufhwer. i physically and mentally cannot take another day like this.
God, I smile when I think about the way You turned...
extra extra depressed tonight.
how’m i doin?
someone should video chat with me.
i have no friends.
someone should put a smile on my face.
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i love when my co-workers show up high.
it makes me laugh. as soon as i walked in this kid reaked of axe, but it’s my favorite scent so i looked past it. then i noticed he was acting off. then i looked at his eyes and started cracking up. he was higher than a kite. i hate people who do drugs. i mean ya it’s your own decision, but don’t expect me to want to hang out with you. this kid was hot to. it’s a shame.
myfictionbeauty:
Tomorrow - Avril Lavigne
i love looking back at old notes/cards and just...
that probably makes me weird. but i just read some old cards and i’m balling my eyes out but it feels good.
screw everyone and their opinions and judgements...
you don’t know me. you don’t know my past. you don’t know what’s in my heart.
“He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more,...”
– Revelation 21:4 (via summerrrbreeze)
i need to cry.
i want someone to cry with me though.
so i have to go talk to the guy at the bagel place
but i need to shower first and i have no conditioner. this is like awful. i can’t go with unconditioned hair! AH MY LIFE.
Heal my heart and make it clean Open up my eyes to...
so i think i have a new job.
i applied at cohens a bagel place yesterday and they want me to come in today to talk to them about my availability. so excited :)
i'm tougher than all of you think.
just sayin’.
We've all got problems.
lackofglory:
Some people are just more open about theirs.
day 10- one person you can trust.
paul. he is the only person i trust completely. the only person in my life i can tell anything to. he’s the only person i’ve ever told everything to. he’s the only person i don’t have to lie to about why i’m sad. me and him obviously have our ups and downs, but i love this boy with all of my heart. he is my best friend. God sent him to me. God knew that the last year...
