today i had my first trip ever to the emergency room. i was terrified. but like my pain in my lower back was so unbearable i had to go. the doctor cut me open. disgusting right? ya, she was like “i’m gonna tap you with the scalpel” and i was like ok and then i was like wait? scalpel as in knife? AHHHH. pretty funny. but ya i’m not dead so that’s good. i have to go back in a couple of days probably. hopefully the pain will stop cuz they didn’t give me any pain meds and ibuprofen is doing nothing :(. damn you stupid cyst…
thanks for showing up and ruining my life. this pain is just what i need before graduation and everything else that’s coming up. i’m scared.
i’m lower than i’ve been in a really long time. i hope i don’t do anything bad. i have to work twice today so that will distract me from life for a while.